Adios, Finally

March 28th, 2017

The most liberating act I did today was to let go of something that’s making me totally unproductive as a human being. Hahaha. Sorry, that sounded a bit off…but really…it took me nine years to discover Facebook has one function on deleting your account permanently, and it’s exactly what I did a few hours ago. 

When in “topak” mode, I’d usually go on “deac” mode (account deactivation) which is easier to do because anytime, you can come back and rave about it all you want. 

Amazingly, I didn’t have any “withdrawal” syndrome like I experience whenever on deac mode. I just have to secure nine-year worth of photos and videos. FB has an application for easy transfer of files. Took me less than ten minutes to do.

There. Just sharing. Gotta get back to work now. =)

Succulentophile!

March 21st, 2017


Barely a month has passed since I got converted into a cacti and succulents enthusiast. Well, sort of.

Am not a hardcore gardener. Never, in fact. Plants of whatever kind die in my hands so fast and so easily. And that is why I earned the title “brown thumb” courtesy of jowa. Whenever I touch a plant, he would follow suit and touch it as well for fear that it might suffer an untimely death. Familiar? Yeah, sounds funny but my hands are quite similar to the angel of death in a number of ways. I might have taken the title too seriously that it took me many years before I have overcome the fear of planting my own greens.

Recently though, I chanced upon pretty-looking, teeny-tiny potted plants in the market where I buy our weekly groceries and food supplies. At first, I only marveled at their sight. Cacti and succulents of many types and varieties. I tell you, the sight is enough a “budol-budol” in itself! Yung tipong pag tumitig ka pa ng matagal, itataya mo na lahat ng pamalengke mo at uuwi kang masaya kahit na wala pala kayong kakainin for the week. Just kidding. Shemps, I have enough sense naman to do that. To make the long story short, I shelled out around 30 percent of my grocery budget for them lovely plants! Whoa.

And jowa was like, “what did you just buy again this time?” Too bad, it only took hours or so and he was also converted into one. I had the last laugh, as usual. Nowadays, I’d catch him surfing the net for varieties, sun and nutrient requirements, soil types, acclimatizing, and many other infos needed to care for cacti and succulents. While I familiarize with the names and does potting, he’s the more hands-on. He knows what to use if we can’t buy cactus mix, for example. He knows which varieties should be more exposed to sun or which has more resilience to watering.

So, why are we hooked on these plants? First of all, succulents and cacti provide a lot of bang for your money. Their colors and textures are so strikingly beautiful. Wait, til you watch them all blossom and boast of their flowers. Second, these plants don’t really need too much attention or water. In short, hindi sila KSP. I have one succulent na tinatawag na stonecrop kasi kahit iwanan mo lang sya sa isang tabi, wag diligan at wag paarawan, keri lang. Tuloy ang buhay ng bakla. O ha, may pinagmanahan. Mana sya sa akin. Third, these plants are manageable because of their size. They can be placed in great containers that make them mobile.

Ayun. Nakakatuwa lang that we really strive to find time to do the things we want, amidst the challenge of both domestic and personal growth chuva requirements. Kung sabagay, lahat naman may lugar basta gugustuhin lang.

 

 

Tunic-Hunting

January 24th, 2017

One thing that’s certain about holidays is that it can add plenty of unwanted pounds to your frame, enough to shatter your digital bathroom scale.

That’s right. Take it from me.

On the last throes of 2016, we spent the Christmas season in my hometown in Pili, Camarines Sur. The place is my mini-wonderland of sorts, with Mother whipping all the delectable food in my wishlist. Not to mention, husband and I had to dine out too whenever we need to buy groceries. So yes, it’s the dreaded extra flabs here and there that’s making me position the selfie stick up there. If I point it to my frame on the same level, God knows what kind of gigantic slab of fat you’d see. Horrors.

I also think no amount of weight loss supplements could help for now. Experts say some of these could actually even damage your body’s metabolism. So, no to that.

What I discovered though is that you can actually wear tunic dresses to minimize those flab from becoming obvious. The last few days of January and perhaps early February I will devote to hunting for tunic dresses.

I’ve been following a blogger, MommyFleur (who says motherhood and kikayness do not mix) and I found her tunic outfits so classy and fabulous.

Parang ganito oh. Saan kaya ako makakahanap nyan. Hmmmmm.

The Big Scare

January 22nd, 2017

Negative. The word in itself connotes something harmful or bad, and yet today, “negative” means celebration. For days and weeks now, I’ve been having morning sickness, dizzy spells, missed period — signs usually associated with conceiving or pregnancy.

Alam mo yung namamalengke ka lang tapos makakaramdam ka ng pagkahilo, biglang panlalamig ng sikmura, parang masusuka?

Forever the paranoid, I immediately dropped by the nearest drugstore and bought pregnancy kit after experiencing the sensation.

Why all the fuss?

For women like me in their late 30s, with two teenagers, the least we have in mind is to go through the same bittersweet predicament fifteen years ago. Fifteen years old na kasi ang bunso ko. Oo, masaya sana na may bulilit ka pa sa bahay, laruan pag nabuburyong, kakampi pag inapi ka ng mag-aama mo, pero marami din kasi talaga ang dapat na i-factor-in sa ngayon, age notwithstanding. Kailangan mo ng KKK. Kayamanan, kalusugan, at katapangan.

First of all, I have an allergic rhinitis. A friend in high school almost had rendezvous with the angel of death when she conceived in her mid-30s. She also has rhinitis. Imagine the ordeal? The sneezing, runny nose, watery eyes plus the medication could possibly be harmful. Thankfully, she and her beautiful daughter survived to tell their story.

Second, life is more relaxed now with grown-up children. To conceive means to give up your me-time, to wait for your tummy pop up after nine solid months, to see yourself in the mirror with puffy every-thing (nose, eyes, chin, feet, hands, etc).

Third, conceiving means saving more money! You don’t just burst a child into this world to suffer. A parent must be able to give proper care, education, nourishment, and all other requirements for the baby to grow normal. Di ba? Ang complicated. Sana kung pwede lang na basta umire sa hangin at bahala na si baby sa buhay niya. Pero hindi nga ganoon.

Anyway, the kit showed just one purple band visible on the test region. Hooray! It gave me a glimpse of hope that the monthly red will soon follow. I was so yabang and all, like a real gung-ho. But in the days that followed, wala pa rin. Hinayupak. Saan naglamyerda ang monthly red, aber! My fear escalated. Besides, the morning sickness and dizzy spells won’t go. Yesterday, I decided to perform another test. Walang sukuan to. Pucha.

There’s a slight probability (maybe) that the first test got wrong. Eh kasi ginawa ko sya in the middle of the day. Ang sabi sa instructions, wait until early morning for your urine is most suitable since it generally contains the highest concentration of hCG or human chorionic gonadtropin.

Well, surprise.

Result says negative still!

Jowa was supposedly excited. He told me about considering a good OB Gyne, a nice-sounding (and profound?) baby name, and talking our panganay and bunso to raising their baby brother or sister. Baka daw nung umalis sya ay tumakbo ako sa doktor at pinatanggal ko para negative ang lumabas. Mga ganung eklavu. To be honest, I’m also excited with the prospect but not with the difficulty that comes with it.

Could there be false result? I don’t think so. However, there are possible reasons for false result:

  1. Abnormal medical condition. So far, wala naman akong ganoon. Unless sasabihin mong abnormal yung allergic rhinitis ko. Hindi naman. Ako siguro, pwede pang tawaging abnormal most of the time.
  2. Ectopic pregnancy. Walang history nito sa angkan namin. Eto yung pregnancy outside of uterus.
  3. Ovarian cyst. I had a general check-up at safe naman si matris, sabi ni ate doktora!
  4. Expired kit. Nyahahaha! Di ako bumibili ng expired na pregnancy kit.

So that’s the story.

I guess kailangan na naming mag-celebrate. Yun lang!

Ennuistic

August 1st, 2016

These days, peace and happiness are quite hard to come by. Maybe because we’re too preoccupied with so many things: catastrophes, workloads, personal issues, ambitions that seem hard to achieve. I suspect it could also be my consumption of too much pork and too much sweets, as the husband would quip.

Bottomline is, I’m feeling like I’m stuck in a rut. The same rut that bloody sent crazy people into oblivion!

The feeling is so familiar. Paralyzingly real. It’s when you would just want to sit all day, stare at nothing. Play blind and deaf. Stop minding the world. Disappear forever!

The irony of it.

Indeed, you cannot have a full control of everything — not even your own life. To some extent, I was thinking this year’s my super year because honestly, blessings came abundantly. Friends multiplied. Authority figures became more considerate. And yet, all these self-defeating thoughts… again?

I gave up on the idea that self-help books are a savior. They’re merely business ploys for the authors and merchandisers to earn at the expense of others. The real arena is the self. When conflicting beliefs and ideas arise, that’s when you should be more attuned internally. Easier said than done, huh?

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