Random Thoughts

The Redux

September 29th, 2011

The calendar says we still have 86 Days,  23 Hours, and 48 Minutes left before Christmas 2011 strucks. Some Facebook friends can’t contain the excitement that they post daily countdowns to the most awaited season of the year. But whether this Holiday brings good tidings or not, I have no idea. What I’m definite about is the fact that our country had just been lashed by Pedring a fews days back. I call it the “redux”: the return of supertyphoons. We barely breathed and news anchors are already spewing out warnings left and right for the coming of Quiel. And by the way, PAGASA says some four more typhoons will hit the country in October alone. Welcome to the Philippines!


Some years back, we witnessed how twin supertyphoons Ondoy and Pepeng claimed lives after lives of innocent Pinoys, including what little belonging poor Juan has. Parang kailan lang. Now, it seemed as if calamities are in vogue once again. Is there a way where we can re-fashion all these? I am personally disheartened by the recent calamity. On my way to work, I saw how palay farms have been destroyed and submerged under floodwater, even those that were ready for harvesting. I can almost see my father’s eyes whose face have been prematurely aged, whose calloused hands have been wrinkled even more , and whose skin have been darkened and sagged by years of toiling under the sun. I can almost sense how devastated our rice farmers must be. What they will get from their farm might not even suffice for the expenses they’ve incurred this season.

To think our government has been aiming for 100 percent rice sufficiency by 2013. Take note that our country is one of the chief producers and consumers of rice. Truth be told, there was significant growth rate recorded in our rice production. In fact, the amount of rice produced was on an upward swing from 2000 to 2008. However, it declined in the last few years due to massive topical typhoons and changing weather/climate. We are now continuously challenged to have a steady rice production in order to cater to overall rice requirement.

But in these trying times, I doubt it. Anyhoo, Merry Christmas. Sigh.

Thank God, It’s Time to Go Home

June 22nd, 2011

Whew. I love the quiet of this moment. Alone at my desk, reading some office stuff (the last of mails for the day), sipping (no, slurping?) vanilla-flavored energen, staring at the pile of papers I’m about to part with in less than an hour.

I love the fact that I’ll be seeing the kids home after this and we’ll be talking about school, classmates, lessons, their teachers, assignments, books.

It excites me that I’ll probably be watching film noirs with the man or we’ll simply cuddle in bed and talk about life when we reach our 40’s, 50’s…while listening to good music.

Where I work, the year is defined into cropping seasons: January to June is dry season (DS) whereas, July to December is wet season (WS). This is important as far as I’m concerned since our institute caters to the rice farming sector. Everything else related to farming technology revolve around these schedules. Which leads me to think: can life be decribed season-based as well? If that’d be the case, I would say my 2011 DS had been a mix of tumultuous, exciting, irritating, boring, and fun experience. Very much like chopsuey. Or even pakbet. Colorful and delicious.

Well, last May, my 34th birthday started with such a bang, my heart was actually shattered to pieces. But as they say, there’s always a rainbow after the rain. And boy, was I enjoying that rainbow to the hilt these days!

And because life is generally great — I’m calling it a day. Yay, time to go home now!

Looking For an Answer

April 11th, 2011

I saw this today from a friend’s wall:

God answers all prayers in 3 ways, “Yes” — because you deserve it, “No”–because you deserve better and “Not yet”– because the best is yet to come.

Isn’t it amazing how we are “loved” that much?  There could be unforseen delays,  but THE answer is revealed ONLY the moment we are ready for it. A yes, a no, or not yet – it doesn’t matter as long as you have TRUST and FAITH in Him. Yesterday, I asked for a sign. I said, God please let me know if  this is a better time to do what I think I should be doing.

I looked back and reflected.  The biggest blessings didn’t always come in a nice package. Just like people who are not so “nice” may actually be angels in disguise. Whatever the answer, I will accept it wholeheartedly.

The Phenomenon

April 11th, 2011

Very recently, I find myself pondering yet again on that which is mystical, or should I say metaphysical? What is it about the mysteries of the world that keeps me hooked, I don’t know. Maybe it’s the glaring fact that not everything can be explained by science and science alone. Not everything backed-up by solid empirical data holds water all the time.  Perhaps, because it tells us that there’s an even greater Force behind all these.

The past few years tells us a lot of lessons. Despite rapid advances in technologies, we are unable to predict catastrophe and counter the massive destruction it brings. Take the case of Japan, a well-equipped nation, both technologically and economically speaking. Yet when  tsunami hits its shores, it was unable to protect its people. A sad reality, indeed. Enter the crisis on nuclear reactors in Fukushima, and you see a picture of a once-economic giant, helpless and vulnerable in the face of destruction! We also saw how some nations have changed almost beyond recognition after they were devastated by massive calamities.

Last week, news says “a huge aftershock rocked quake-weary Japan,  rattling nerves as it knocked out power to the northern part of the country and prompted tsunami warnings that were later canceled”. I have classmates in high school who are now residents of the country. I feel for them each time they write in their facebook status how devastating it is to be in the situation. I can only pray for their safety amidst these trying times. It’s great to know that there were no reports of serious injuries or any other major damage.

Panic Mode No More

March 29th, 2011

Feeling a sense of panic is hardly unique to one person. Everyone practically gets frazzled by an impending doom, whether real or imagined. You know what I mean? Picture yourself stepping on a thin layer of ice, and you hearing a loud but really slow “crack” below you. There’s this consciousness that anytime soon… you’ll be drowning in the cold, but completely out of control!

To me, this is not something new. I have been to countless “panic attacks”, ranging from slight to severe to super-duper-over-to-the-highest-level. It is fear gripping at your toes. You feel so afraid, and while your very own “sanity” is partying somewhere, you are left tossing a coin: to flight or flee? It is a condition that’s both paralyzing and demoralizing. You lose your focus, and you end up being over sensitive. Nowadays finds me battling with too much of it in my system. Although I can resort to bluntness when confronted by overly-blunt humanoids, I just believe it’s not fair.

So why do we panic, really? We get disoriented due to several things. For instance, being caught in a messy situation (especially if it’s not your own doing). Or when something erupts and you are unprepared of the repercussions.

I found a book (last month actually, but its only now that I got to read it) and found some valuable tips to curb/stop the panic cycle:

1. Take a slow, deep breath and close your eyes. Doing so provides a change in your consciousness.

2. Pick some ordinary, routine task that re-focuses your brain. Anything at all that can break your negative mood such as responding to an email from another institution or company , editing a memo, checking for lapses in language & grammar from your MOU, or re-organizing the activities in your monthly work calendar.

3. Take an exercise – go for a few minutes of brisk walk. Maybe you can volunteer to bring documents from your unit to another office or another building. Exercising is said to have an amazing mind-clearing effect.

4. Once you have calmed yourself, do something that is challenging but not frightening. Do something that makes you feel you have accomplished an important task.

But the best remedy so far, is …tadaaaaan! Talking to a friend. Today, I had been to lunch with a good friend at work, shared some laughs, exchanged a few jokes, shared some advice. The feeling is awesome. Friends can give the best calming effect ever.

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“Action is a great restorer and builder of confidence. Inaction is not only the result, but the cause, of fear. Perhaps the action you take will be successful; perhaps different action or adjustments will have to follow. But any action is better than no action at all.” (Norman Vincent Peale)

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